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About Danielle G. Van Ess

Danielle G. Van Ess is a Massachusetts (born and raised), experienced estate planning and small business attorney who helps her clients protect and preserve what matters most to them. To learn more, please visit: or call: 781-740-0848

Like How You Prepare for a Nor’Easter

The 3 Nor’Easters we’ve had in the past 10 days or so here on the South Shore and around the Boston area remind us how important it is to be prepared for whatever life may throw at us.

You might fill water bottles, ready flashlights, pile on blankets, stock firewood, or gas up the car, generator, and take other steps to prepare for the possibility of a power outage.

You can also prepare for the possibility of temporary emergencies affecting your health  and/or your ability to manage your money.

The way to prepare for a storm or an emergency is the way that makes the most sense for your family and your home under all your current circumstances; that changes over the years.

Emergency responders might be able to come to your rescue to evacuate you if you wait too long, but it’s better to heed warnings to evacuate safely before then.

The new Massachusetts wills, trusts, and estates laws in the Probate code that took effect 6 years ago can make decisions about your health care, your children’s care, your sentimental belongings and everything else you have, but it’s better to make your own wishes known and your own plan for your family while you can.

Your decisions and plans changes over the years as your family and circumstances change, so your Will, trust, and estate plan should change too.

Just like Nor’easters are a predictable part of life here in New England, possible incapacity and death are also a regular part of life, whether you’re ready for them or not.


By preparing for the worst while hoping for the best, you can feel safer, less afraid, and more in control, no matter what nature brings.

Give yourself precious peace of mind and make life easier for the people you love by making sure you have a current, effective, personalized, comprehensive plan to guide them, no matter what happens or when. Don’t wait until it’s an emergency or until it’s too late.

Call DGVE law® in Hingham, Massachusetts today at 781-740-0848 or email to learn about how we’re different, why you should choose us, and to take that first step toward thoughtfully preparing to weather all life’s ups and downs.

Harper Lee – Privacy Please

It is usually preferable to have a trusted family member, friend, or professional trust company, bank trust department or other professional such as a long time Certified Public Accountant (CPA) serve as the Trustee of one’s Trust and that is precisely what I routinely advise my clients.

But sometimes they don’t have that kind of relationship or they don’t want to burden their loved ones with that responsibility.  Sometimes clients don’t have enough assets to justify paying the higher fees a bank or trust company would charge, and sometimes they just feels very strongly about paying a less personal bank or trust company that way.

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In my small, local law firm practice, it is not uncommon for my clients and I to develop a comfortable, trusting relationship. It often flows from the nature of the intimate family and financial details involved in interviewing and counseling them to be able to prepare highly personalized legal documents regarding their lifetime health care and the management and distribution of everything they may have, according to their wishes.  Sometimes that results in me being the person most knowledgeable about and committed to helping my clients effectuate their wishes.

In that way, I am able to serve as a resource for my clients’ loved ones and trusted agents if they so choose, and which I am honored to do.  But sometimes, clients ask me to serve as their Personal Representative (formerly, but really not long enough ago, called “Executrix” for a woman and “Executor for a man” under a Will) and Trustee (of a Trust).  That’s what appears to have happened with Harper Lee and her longtime lawyer, whom Lee named as her Personal Representative and Trustee.

There is a potential conflict of interest, however, whenever a lawyer who drafts a Will or Trust is also named to serve as the Personal Representative for the estate and Trustee of the trust because the lawyer will be entitled to reasonable compensation, which often means the lawyer’s usual and customary legal fees, and also almost certainly use her own law firm to do the work. Therefore, it is common (and good!) practice that whenever a lawyer serves in that kind of capacity, she makes full disclosure of the conflict of interest, explaining it all carefully to make sure the clients understand and consent to the lawyer serving despite those conflicts.  The argument that Lee’s lawyer exerted undue influence seems from afar based more on frustration with her lawyer’s successful efforts to protect and preserve Lee’s desire that everyone respect her privacy.

Despite the New York Time’s successful lawsuit to have the public record of Harper Lee’s Last Will and Testament unsealed and made public, Lee’s lawyer’s efforts to keep Lee’s private wishes private was mostly successful.  That’s because, rather than a simple Will that would specify all the details of who is to inherit what, when, and how, Lee’s lawyer used a much more private trust and a corresponding Pour-Over Will to handle those details. So the public can estimate the size of Lee’s financial legacy and we know some of her living heirs at law, but that’s about where it stops.  The rest remains a mystery, as she wrote it.

Get Organized for Tax Time!

Tax Time

While you are gathering all of your documents to prepare for tax season, why not use this time to check something else off your list?

Tax time is the perfect time to review or create your Will, Trust, Power of Attorney and all the other parts of a comprehensive estate plan?

Meet with DGVE law® soon and we’ll provide the tools and resources and help you organize your financial statements to bring to your accountant, OR organize it all for your accountant, then provide that information as context for reviewing your family’s estate planning legal needs in light of the many changes over the past few years.

Let us help you come out of this tax season feeling relieved and in control instead of confused and disorganized.

We only have a few appointments left in March, so if you want one of them, hurry up and call our office now at (781) 740-0848.   

There’s no time like the present to prepare for your family’s future.  The clock’s ticking.

Should I write my own Will?

The more cynical amongst us would say, by all means, please do your own estate plan! That is my retirement plan with guaranteed future work to untangle the inadvertent messes.DIY Will - Ticking Time BombI’m still holding onto hope that people will listen to us when we caution you that:

  • there is more to estate planning than “verbiage”
  • it requires more than a lawyer’s eyeballs to review it:
    • she has to actually use her brain to spot all the issues involved, recall all the laws that apply, analyze the best possible solutions for your unique situation, and then
    • she has to use her mouth to explain that all to you in plain English until you understand and can make well-informed choices about how to proceed with your own plan.

Meanwhile, here’s another cautionary tale from my friend and colleague, Texas Wills, Trusts, & Estates lawyer Rania Combs:

The Nightmare of DIY Planning

A couple of weeks ago, I received a phone call from a woman whose ex-boyfriend had died, naming her as the sole beneficiary and executor of his multimillion dollar estate.

Despite her ex-boyfriend’s substantial wealth, he had forgone the advice of a lawyer and prepared a Will using DIY software. He told her verbally that he wanted her to use the funds for the benefit of his minor children, but his Will was completely silent on that point.

The ex-boyfriend’s goal was apparently to use his substantial wealth to provide for his children. If he had consulted an attorney, the attorney would have advised him to create a testamentary trust for their benefit. Creating a trust would have allowed him to appoint someone to manage those assets for his children, and to dictate how and when the assets should be distributed to them. This would have ensured the assets passed to his children as he wished.

He took a substantial risk when he named his ex-girlfriend the sole beneficiary of his estate:

  1. Naming her as the sole beneficiary gives her legal ownership of those assets. She is not legally bound to provide anything to his children.
  2. Even if she does honor her commitment, life sometimes gets in the way. Because those assets legally belong to her, they can be exposed to her personal liabilities. For example, suppose she gets in a terrible accident and seriously injures someone else. The assets earmarked for the children could be exposed to a judgment for those claims.
  3. What happens she dies before the children? Since she has legal ownership of those assets, they will be part of her estate and will pass to her heirs or beneficiaries, who may not have made a commitment to care for the children.

As a result of his choice, his children’s financial future is in the hands of their father’s ex-girlfriend who has no biological or emotional ties to them.

What a nightmare!

Attorneys don’t simply fill in forms. We use our years of schooling and experience to analyze your unique circumstances, explain the ramifications of your choices, advise you on the best way to accomplish your goals and objectives, and tailor your documents to address your unique estate planning needs. Document preparation services and canned forms do not.

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Should We Have Joint or Individual Revocable Living Trusts as a Married Couple?

Should We Have Joint or Individual Revocable Living Trusts
as a Married Couple Estate Planning Together?

I’ve been getting this question a lot lately: Why shouldn’t we, as a married couple who have had all joint accounts and joint ownership, just have one joint revocable living trust instead of separate or individual revocable living trusts?

Joint revocable living trusts can and do make sense for some married couples some of the time, just like Wills rather than trusts sometimes make more sense in a given situation. It is always important to review all of your personal family and financial circumstances with your estate planning lawyer to be sure that you have a complete and accurate understanding of how and why one approach may be better suited to you than another.

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To broadly generalize, however, here are 8 reasons I would recommend individual living trusts rather than a joint trust for a married couple planning together:

1. If you and your spouse are likely to have over $2M combined total assets in your estate (including the value of any life insurance policies that would have paid out upon your deaths and the value of all retirement accounts), this is a way to minimize the impact of the Massachusetts estate tax (which has a $1M threshold for filing and an upper tax rate of 16% on the adjusted total assets in your estate).

2. If you and your spouse are likely to leave a combined total of over $10.86M, as the federal estate tax currently stands, then this is a way to minimize the effect of the federal estate tax as part of your overall estate plan. Note that the federal estate tax has been in existence for about a century in one way or another, but this is the highest exemption amount we’ve ever had and being the political hot button topic that it is, there is no guarantee that the present exemption or tax rates will stay where they are. In fact, if the last 15 years have demonstrated anything (going from a $1M exemption and 55% tax rate in 2001 to the present levels), it’s that the federal estate tax is highly likely to shift around, sometimes rather dramatically! Without a crystal ball the best we can do is to draft very flexible plans and keep a lookout for all the possible chances that may occur.

3. It is easier for your surviving spouse and/or trustee to determine, in consultation with your estate planning attorney, your CPA, and your financial advisor working together as a team, which assets to fund into which irrevocable subtrusts to take into account the laws as they exist at that time of your death. If the assets were held in a joint trust, your surviving spouse and/or trustee would not be able to move assets held jointly into the credit shelter or family trust or it could invalidate the tax exemption status of that entire subtrust.

4. When you die, you’re not around to change the terms of your trust anymore, so at that point, your trust becomes irrevocable at least in part. The portions of your trust that would benefit your surviving spouse and your children, if applicable, become irrevocable. If you have a separate revocable living trust, you can still amend your own trust even after the death of your spouse. This provides a surviving spouse with more flexibility and autonomy than a joint trust would.

5. If yours is a second or subsequent marriage and/or blended family, you and your spouse may not have the same plan for distribution and the flexibility you have to make somewhat different plans can avoid some potential family drama.

6. To minimize estate taxes, you will have to divide assets at some point. I believe that it is probably a lot easier to cherry-pick and split up assets now, while you are in full possession of your faculties and not in the process of grieving the loss of your spouse, than it would be in the relatively immediate aftermath of his or her death and without his or her assistance with the process.

7. If you or your spouse came into the marriage with substantially unequal assets, separate trusts can also be a way to maintain the character of those separate assets and ensure that they end up where you ultimately intend.

8. There are also some questions, and potential traps, regarding the character of assets contributed to a joint trust as opposed to separate trusts. For examples, depending on the language and provisions of the trust itself, it may not be explicitly clear what portion of the assets in a joint trust should be attributed to the deceased spouse vs. which portion of those assets would be considered part of the surviving spouse’s estate, and contributions to a joint trust may be counted as a taxable gift to your children or other secondary beneficiaries.

After a full examination of your current family and financial circumstances and a personal discussion with you about your goals and priorities in terms of your estate plan, your attorney will be able to help you make the best informed choices about which type of plan best suits you and your family.

It Would Have Been Us

The following is a guest post by Bob Beal.  Many thanks to Bob for keeping in touch and sharing this with us to illustrate why this type of planning is so important not just for the what-ifs, but also for the genuine peace of mind.  We are so happy that this beautiful family is OK.

In the Winter of 2011, my wife and I sat down with Danielle to put together a plan that would make sure our 2 children were taken care of if we ever weren’t around anymore.  It was a challenging task but it needed to be done.  Danielle put together a wonderfully laid out arrangement that we are completely comfortable having for our family.  Little did we know that just having it in place would bring us such comfort so fast. When you confront you own mortality things get pretty serious, pretty quickly.

One year later in March 2012 my wife and daughter were involved in a life-threatening “jaws of life” level car accident. Our medical documents were tested and having our plan in place brought a measure of immediate relief to an otherwise awful situation.

Then this past August we were on a family vacation in the Rocky Mountains in Colorado. Late one afternoon were returning from a day trip to Aspen, driving along a four lane highway with a jersey barrier dividing the east bound from west bound lanes. My 8 year old daughter was complaining about starting to feel car sick so we moved her to the front passenger seat knowing it wasn’t the safest place for a child to sit but not wanting her puking in the car then either.


Just about then, my wife, who was driving, moved into the right lane to let a motorcycle pass us. He wasn’t speeding or doing anything wrong; he was just a guy out on his Ducati going down the road. He opened up a gap of about 50 to 75 feet ahead up us and coincidently the jersey barrier stopped at that same point.  A white Ford coming east bound veered over into his lane and it was a direct hit, a head on collision of two vehicles both going highway speed.  It was instant. It was violent. It was brutal.

The oncoming car went by us in the wrong direction with a gap of about five feet, the length of a typical house broom.  Our car was hit with debris from the bike. My wife managed to stop our car on the shoulder, in the grass.  The Ducati was laying there still running, badly leaking fuel.  I walked over and shut it off while my wife stayed with our kids, who were understandably terrified, trying to reassure them that we were all okay.

Without going into more details, we all had an avalanche of “what if” scenarios playing out in our minds for at least the next few days.  The most chilling of which was that if the Ford hadn’t hit the motorcycle, it would have been us that were next in his path. An experience like is difficult to make sense of.  We repeatedly came back to our planning with Danielle as a huge source of comfort.  If something tragic ever happened, we knew what would take place and that our children would be taken care of. We still talk about it once in a while, but we also reassure our children that we love them and have made sure that they are going to be all right, no matter what.

How Much Does a Simple Will Cost? (Redux)

Last Will And Testament

At least once a week we see or hear the same question and though we’ve addressed it before, it seems worth repeating.  In the interest of time, rather than write out another full- sentenced blog post on the subject, I’m simply copying and pasting here from the answer just wrote personally responding to this question in a local moms’ group of which, as a mother of 4 young children now between the ages of 4 and 13 (oh my head, my 1st baby is now 13! I’m still processing this from a couple days ago), I’m a member:

“I agree it’s really hard to just quote a fee without knowing more. Here’s (a long-winded answer – sorry!) why. If you are just looking to plug your names into a couple standard documents, you can probably do it free or very cheap yourself. Then you can wait & see what happens, eventually. Actually, by the time those documents are tested you’ll necessarily be incapacitated or dead (that’s when the documents come into play). A better plan is to seek legal counseling to help you make the most informed choices for your own family based on your unique family and financial circumstances and for that you will need a lawyer who practices in this area of the law (“estate planning”) all or most of the time who will know what questions to ask you so she can spot the issues unique to you and help counsel you through the choices you will need to make (& if she’s good, there will be a lot of questions & a lot of choices!). For examples: what kind of will are you really talking about – just 1 will or 1 for you and 1 for your spouse? simple or pourover into a trust? do you have any children with another partner or does your spouse? are either of you remarried? do you expect anyone to challenge your wishes? what if your spouse wants to remarry if you die? will your Will have a testamentary trust in case you & your spouse both die while your children are still minors? how do you make decisions about who to name for what roles under your plan? who will care for the children and who will handle their money for them – the same person or different people? what if you & your spouse can’t agree – how do you find a solution to that? what if you’re not married – what legal rights do both of you have? do you care about paying estate taxes? do you even know if you might have to? are there other legal documents (perhaps more urgently important than a will, which only comes into effect after you’re dead) included (medical directives, powers of attorney, guardianship for minors etc.), what if you’re pregnant and incapacitated? will you ever hear from your lawyer again? what if your circumstances change (they will)? what if the laws change (they will)? how will you be notified & know to make changes? where will you store all your documents & how? how will you notify and explain all of this to the people you want to take care of you? are there things you really want to say to the people you love or tough explanations you need to make & if so, is your lawyer going to show you how and help you do that? What everyone really needs is an estate plan, which includes a Will that may or may not be simple, depending on all the circumstances involved. And fortunately in this area there are a lot of lawyers so it becomes a matter of finding the right combination of skills, experience, and “fit” between you and your lawyer (like you would in seeking a doctor for ongoing consultation and care). Good luck!”


“it’s not about what you have, it’s about how much you care"


Attorney Danielle G. Van Ess of the family-friendly, Hingham, Massachusetts law firm DGVE law, LLC wants to help you “protect your family, yourself, and your stuff.” She explains, “it’s not about what you have, it’s about how much you care. You care about who makes your medical decisions for you. You care who takes care of your children. You care about preserving whatever you have to use throughout your lifetime. You care about what you leave behind to whom, how, and when.”
If your children are minors you worry about who would raise them into adulthood. If your child just became a legal adult, you worry that, without his or her own basic estate plan in place, you lack access to financial and medical information to help him or her. If you have a child with special needs you worry about who would know everything you do about your child and how to ensure your child’s needs are always well met. If you have an adult child with a history of less than stellar financial management skills, addiction, gambling, or who may be divorcing, you worry about lost assets.
 More people are sued than ever today. We know most doctors will be sued sometime in their careers, but increasingly so will financial, accounting, real estate, and IT professionals. Car accidents, slip-and-falls, and accidents involving other people’s children are all real threats. The time to protect your assets from possible lawsuits is before you think you might be sued, before it is too late, and the way you try to protect your assets determines your likelihood of prevailing. Some DIY efforts, such as titling assets in your spouse’s name or establishing a family LLC or LLP without ensuring it owns the assets nor maintaining required formalities just provide false confidence and will likely fail to provide asset protection.
You may worry about how to pass significant resources to your loved ones without causing unintended consequences such as disrupting family harmony. Your estate planning attorney can help you design a plan so each family member can enjoy your cherished vacation home without disagreements far into the future. If you have always been charitably inclined, you can plan to support charities dear to your heart while also ensuring your loved ones are well provisioned. If you have a trusted financial advisor and CPA, your lawyer can and should work together with them as a team on your behalf to help you make your dreams for the future come true. Or you may worry about having sufficient resources to support yourself through retirement, possible long term medical expenses, remaining in your home as long as possible, and preserving your hard-earned resources for your loved ones. While you may not feel like you have enough to worry about estate taxes, you just might and perhaps ironically the less you have the more important it may be to preserve it to protect those you love.
Despite all these important reasons to meet with an experienced estate planning lawyer to learn how the law views your family or financial circumstances, whether your current plan is likely to achieve your goals, and what your options really are, most Americans mistakenly believe they do not need even a simple Will. Far too many Americans have stale, old estate plans that no longer reflect their current personal circumstances, especially given recent sweeping changes in the law.
In 2008 Congress passed a resolution proclaiming the third week of every October as National Estate Planning Awareness Week noting, “Many Americans are unaware that a lack of estate planning and financial illiteracy may cause their assets to be disposed of to unintended parties by default through the complex process of probate.” With a comprehensive estate plan and financial roadmap for success, Van Ess says, “you can control your own assets during your lifetime, designate the people you want to care for you and provide for your loved ones if you’re ever incapacitated, and make sure that after your death you leave what you want to whomever you want how and when you want, all while ensuring there are more assets left rather than wasted on unnecessary expenses.”
Because there is so much more to an estate plan than just filling in forms, you need to find a qualified lawyer to assist you. Van Ess is passionate about educating and empowering her clients. Says Van Ess, “Just as we as patients seek the right bedside manner in our doctors, we need to find the right deskside manner in our lawyers. Once we find that lawyer we can say with confidence ‘I want to talk with my lawyer’ and it takes away so much unnecessary worry, replacing it with true peace of mind and comfort of heart.”
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About Attorney Danielle G. Van Ess and DGVE law®
Raised on the North Shore in Swampscott, Massachusetts, Van Ess graduated with honors from the George Washington University in Washington, DC then met her husband, Chad Van Ess, Senior Counsel for the Acushnet Company, comprised of the Titleist and Footjoy golf brands, in 1998 as classmates at Boston University School of Law. Danielle “got her passport stamped” and moved with Chad to Hingham on the South Shore in 2006 where they laid down firm roots and are raising their four daughters, ages 1 through 9. Danielle established her law firm, DGVE law, LLC in their family home on East Street on September 1, 2008. For over six years now DGVE law® has been proudly “helping people add to, protect, and move their families”® by providing high quality professional legal services in the areas of adoption, estate planning, and residential real estate. For the right, truly passionate entrepreneurs, DGVE law® is also “helping you build, grow, and nurture your business.”
For more information, please visit: or call: 781-740-0848.

Time for “The Talk


The idea of confronting our parents’ mortality is indeed difficult, but this is a conversation (or series of conversations) that is crucial to you and your family’s well-being.  We are so used to being cared for by our parents that the transition to becoming their caregiver often sneaks up on us.  Preparing yourself ahead of time may ease the anxiety this transition can invoke.  That being said, remember that your parents may not want to be reminded of their mortality either… tact is necessary!
Top 5 ways NOT to talk to your parents about Estate Planning
1.        “Come on; let us see your will so we can establish once and for all who your favorite is!”
While this may be gratifying to some, writing a will is an incredibly difficult process, imagine surveying all that you have acquired over your lifetime and then trying to determine what is fair, who is most likely to find value in what is in part, your legacy.  Be sensitive.  The larger issue is ensuring that a will exist, its location is known, and that any necessary updates are made.  When a parent dies without a will, the estate is divided in probate in court, and a judge, not your parent, decides who gets what.  And while this may be satisfying (Yes! You don’t have to take your mom’s Spoons from Around the World Collection!), the financial costs and potential trauma it can cause within the family is not worth it.  So, don’t ask them to choose favorites (you know it’s you anyway) but do ask if one exists.  Remind your parents that it is not about who gets what, you just want to ensure their wishes are followed.
2.       “This is the third time you’ve “lost” your keys, have you decided who is going to make your decisions for you when you get too senile to do it yourself?”
Frankly, no one wants to imagine their parents incapacitated, but should this occur, your parents need to designate someone to act as power of attorney.  Without this designation, a judge will decide, which can once again lead to costly court fees and family trauma.  This is also a good time to express if you have resignations about fulfilling this role yourself.  The person named to this role is given the ability to make legal and financial decisions should your parent be unable to.
3.       “You’re looking a little… ‘tired’ lately, what is the status of your advance health care directives?”
Once again, no one wants to be reminded of their own mortality, but the best time to make these decisions is before someone becomes ill.  Advance health care directives include a living will, a health proxy, and a HIPPA.  Having clear, written instructions created while healthy, ensures that the emotions involved in dealing with illness do not impact decisions.  Without these instructions, heartbreak and even lawsuits could ensue.

4. “We were hoping to retire early, what are your plans for assisted living? We’d love to move in here.”  For the record, a friend of mine’s brother-in-law actually said something like this to his parents; it did not go over well.  The real question here is if your parents have made plans to cover the cost of long-term care.  Most long-term care homes are not covered by Medicare, and can be enormously expensive.  Long-term care insurance is something aging parents need to consider.  Help them (and your future self) by doing the research with them.

5.       And last, and probably the worst of all, what not to say to your parents when discussing estate planning, “I’m so tired of being broke all the time!  On a totally unrelated subject, have you named an authorized user on your financial accounts?”
Yikes!  This is an important issue, because should the account holder become incompetent or die, gaining access to funds can be insanely difficult.  To avoid yet another costly court battle, encourage your parents to name a trusted family member as co-owner of investments and accounts.  Again, if this is a role you are not willing to fulfill, now is the time to speak up.
While I joke, it is vital for your family to fully understand where your  parents are in the estate planning process.   They spent years investing in your well-being and future, an uncomfortable conversation (or two, or three) is the least you can do to invest in theirs.

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Busy Since Birth – Having It All Project

I am grateful for the opportunity Cheryl Stober recently gave me, via Twitter, to contribute my 2 cents to her Having It all Project on her blog, Busy Since Birth.  My interview question answers appeared here, and I am sharing them here.

Briefly describe your life and what you think makes it unique.
I am a full time mom and a full time lawyer with a busy little law firm I started a few years back and situated conveniently right in the family home I share with my husband, our three daughters (ages 3, 6, 8, and their little sister on the way), and a few pets.
I think it’s having a law office in our home that makes our lives a little less common.  After the birth of my first child I quickly realized that full time work outside the home in my nonprofit legal career wouldn’t have covered the cost of childcare for my newborn. It took me 4 years of soul-searching and floundering a bit, while working part time from home for former colleagues, to figure out how to fulfill both my career ambitions, be the type of mother I wanted to be, and figure out how to be able to afford to do both. There was a lot of risk involved but the reward is mostly very sweet.

What are some of your favorite tips and strategies for coping with the chaos?
I am obsessed with organization in every area of my life, personal and professional.  I’m certain it is the only thing that keeps me sane.  Like so many other modern busy moms of a few kids, I rely on technology, specifically syncing all the carefully-color-coded calendars with multiple reminders, to help keep track of all our schedules and appointments.

I was very late to discovering yoga about a year ago (after about 15 years’ worth of friends telling me that I of all people really should at least try it). I have not been consistent with my practice the way I aspire to be, but when I do attend to my yoga practice I feel calmer, more at peace, more patient, more in touch with my own body and mind, and physically healthier. Yoga should absolutely be covered as preventative medicine!

I also highly recommend chocolate and peanut butter to help power through some of the more grueling work projects, combined with coffee when energy is fading.

Please share a moment where it all broke down, and how you got through it.
How to choose just one moment!?!  There has to be at least one of those per day!  Image this scene for a little taste of a moment when it all broke down and what I did to ensure it wouldn’t happen again.
It’s about 8:30am on a weekday. I’m fully dressed for work in a suit, in preparation for a 9:30am meeting with new clients, packing my three daughters’ lunchboxes, serving and cleaning up breakfast, and inquiring about homework in backpacks etc. I tell the big girls to get their coats and shoes on and I head into my office, adjacent to our kitchen, to make sure the desk is cleared off and everything is ready for when I get back from dropping them all off at their three different schools. Shuffling papers around and setting up, I somehow missed the then five-year-old giving her then two-year-old sister a breakfast snack bar. The little one walked all around the kitchen, then into the hallway, into the entry office, bathroom, and finally my office leaving a trail of crumbs it would seem impossible for one little snack bar to make!

So now I’m on my knees cleaning it all up off the floor, watching the clock, starting to panic about everyone being late to school and getting back late for my new client meeting. I’m mentally beating myself up for our chronic tardiness, starting to bark at the girls, and then spiraling into full mommy tantrum mode, circling back to more mental self-abuse.  I get the little one’s coat and shoes on, get everyone strapped into booster and car seats, and as I’m driving them to school apologizing for my tantrum, whining about how hard this is and expressing doubts about whether I can do it anymore, clearly setting a fabulous example leading to a final piling on of mental self-abuse, before kissing them all goodbye and telling them to have a great day and I’d see them at pickup in a few hours.

I make it back in the nick of time, manage to pull it together for a two hour meeting with a lovely couple who have three boys the exact same ages as my girls.  After the meeting, I decided that for the sake of my sanity and in the best interests of my family and our clients, 10am would be the new earliest available appointment time.

Do you have any balance role models? Anything you try to avoid because it wouldn’t work for you?
Balance?  I’ll let you know when I achieve it outside the yoga studio.  As for role models, ideally, I would combine the best of all my friends and family into one superwoman. I would borrow what I envy from all my differently-situated friends, using the falsely limiting yet lazily convenient labels we apply to describe their basic situations: the “full time stay-at-home moms,” “full time work-outside-the-home moms,” “career women” who do not (yet) have children, and the dads who are navigating these same waters their own ways.

But myopically viewing the best of everyone’s situations without accepting the less than glamorous aspects and tradeoffs everyone makes is what gets us into trouble. Despite (or perhaps because of) my thoroughly ‘80s upbringing, since my first child was born in 2004 I’ve been disillusioned to learn that the mythical superwoman is just that, totally unrealistic.  Trying to be her is not only an unattainable goal but also a really unhealthy starting point.  I think the more we all tell it like it really is and pat each other, all of us, on the back for our own efforts and contributions, the happier we’d all be.

Think back to your 18th birthday. How is your life different from how you expected it to be then?
This question actually makes me laugh.  I’m pretty sure that back then I still maintained this (in retrospect) totally ridiculous, romanticized vision of myself as a super-stylish, well-rested, city-dwelling, very successful attorney-mama with a happy little baby on one hip (no spit-up anywhere on my clothes) and a briefcase in the other hand (that had inside plane tickets and an itinerary for a fabulous, exotic vacation with my equal-parenting near perfect partner).

And then there’s reality! I’m a minivan-driving, suburban-dwelling, mother of three (soon four), working my tail off to continue to build, grow, and nurture™ my business, and crashing at the end of every day with my equally tired husband. Sadly, the last true vacation we had (read: without children for more than a one night getaway) was on our honeymoon, over ten years ago. If only I could spin in circles like Wonder Woman to go instantly from makeup-less fleecy lounge pants at school drop-off to dark-circles-covered polished professional, instead of “wasting” the precious time it really takes to accomplish that total transformation.

I recognize and appreciate how very privileged we are to have all that we do, especially this of all weeks. I do my best to teach my children to recognize how lucky we all are too and to be empathetic and eager to help others whenever they can. Even on our hardest days, I wouldn’t change any of it. I never get the best of all worlds on any one given day, but I do get the best of all them some days and for me, that’s the kind of “balance” I guess I need.

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